I made this drawing (the pencil part of it, anyway) one late night, or should I say early morning, under the dim light of sunrise coming through shady curtains, almost without sleep. I was thinking about how our ideas work, and this image speaks about two of them.

One idea is that most times is not the object of our love itself what we're in love of, but the idea we have of it. This is truly a need, because our idea fits our own head better, and what's even more, we have it anytime we need it. This can happen with a person. You love the idea you have of the person you love. This is not saying you don't really love the person, of course you do. But it's the mental construction we make of that person what really attracts you. A good example is this: if your loved one betrays your confidence in any way, you think "I don't know you." when that's not entirely right. You really know that person, but the idea you had of him or her doesn't work anymore. You don't believe it. That's what has been stolen from you, not the person. You'll have to choose what you care most, after, but that's another issue.

The other idea is that it happens not only with people, but also with goals, and simple things. You can have a clear idea of some achievement you wish to comply in the future, and that idea can keep you warm, can give you strengh, can feed you without being really food, until you reach it. It can be the dream of a house of your own, or something as small as a new finished drawing for posting online. It can keep you alive for years, or distracted and working for an entire night. You idea can keep you warm in the middle of tiny iceberg, naked, drifting on a chilly sea. It can be that powerful. It can even make you smile in between.

Whatever you ideas might be, love them. Hug them even if they seem to be ment never to be real. Even if they sometimes hurt you so much you think you can't keep living with them. I can asure you, that's no life living without them.

* * * * * * *

This time, I had the idea of making a time lapse capture of my screen while I worked on this piece. It took one frame per second, and now it plays back at 15 fps, so you can say you're watching it 15 times faster than it happened. Then this morning, looking for background music to put to it, I thought even if my spoken english is really bad, it might be understandable in context, so I give it a shot. It wasn't good, of course, but I was decided not to employ more time on the "making of" than on the proper illustration so... here it is. I hope you find it interesting to see the process. Any feedback will surely be taken into account for future remakes.